awakening story - aug 2025

i first found therianthropy and shifting through youtube after falling into a rabbit hole of Teen Werewolves, such as Wolfie Blackheart, and “how to become a vampire- REAL SPELL” type videos in 2013.

i wish i could remember the name of the channel i found first, but as i listened to her describe what it was like for her to be a wolf, i knew therianthropy would be an all consuming interest of mine for years to come. it was like i was standing too close to a painting before, and now that i had taken a step back, i could see the whole picture.it was pretty instantaneous that i claimed the label for myself, and also began posting on youtube under the name “laika the timber coyote.” through youtube i found tumblr, and set up here for the first time in 2014. as my channel name at the time says, i was a timber wolf coyote cross. despite that i just consider myself a wolf now, being a coywolf at that age was something deeply spiritual for me. more of a “traditional” awakening in that i meditated on it- i think i was a more “dedicated” shifter at that age than i am now!

somewhere around 2015 i put therianthropy and shifting down, because my youtube was found by a classmate and spread like wildfire.

a friend in high school "introduced" me to otherkinity in 2016. i pretended like i had never heard of the concept before, but i was excited that i was "allowed" to participate in the community again. my joy soon ended, when my high school boyfriend saw my personal website at the time and belittled me. so i decided to be more secretive. through this venture in locking myself down, i found an amino group (the dreaded amino...) for Lycans. ~2017. i miss this group. so much. it soon disbanded, but while it was active we shared shifting tips, lifestyle tips, pretty much anything that made us canine.

after the Lycan group disbanded around 2019, i shoved this down, again! it wasn't until around two years into my relationship with my current mate (2023) that i entertained any of this again. he similarly found therianthropy in his youth, and together we are able to be free.